To clarify, I am a chick. I've always got a lot of attention, sexual, emotional, intellectual what have you.. from men. They've been my go-to guys. I've always had a much easier time identifying and generally getting along with the opposite sex, perhaps because they wanted to bang me.
Anyway, for some reason I was watching lesbian porn the other day and they started "tribbing." (Yes, I just learned that term too) and it's not that I haven't fathomed scissoring before, it's just these particular girls doing it together was like.. magical! Their energy together was so wonderful, I didn't even feel like I was watching porn! I felt like I was witnessing a wonderful, fun relationship.
Now, I feel like there's a hole in my life. I feel l need a female sexual partner.
Then there comes the question and definition of monogamy.. My boyfriend cannot possibly fill the need or want or whatever it is I have for a girl. Objectively, I know even friends get jealous when their friends choose their significant other over them so juggling two intimate relationships almost seems like hoarding. But the emptiness I'm feeling without a woman in my life has become a gnawing annoyance.
I've always thought of sexuality as a scale. But I've never believed I could relate to a woman the way I feel I can now and I'm eager to explore it. Regardless of all my emotion, I sadly don't think I will find the right girl for me anytime soon.
Has anyone else had this sexuality question come up this late in the game? Am I romanticizing lesbianism because of the chemistry of the porn stars? What the hell is going on?! I've had hot girls come on to me before, but they were always so forward it was scary. Any man can lay it on thick and I'm a brick wall, but a sexy woman? I just get awkward and unsure of myself.
So, I'm thinking of hitting up the local les bar in order to sort this issue out further..
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Yeah, I've kissed girls and "hooked up" with one, but that intimate bonding I've felt with men never seemed possible. Now I feel like I'm missing it..
Say that you are ok with him having sexual relations with guys as long as he is ok with you having sexual relations with girls
edit: too many acolytes and new arrivals here....HELLO :^)
Secondly:
Are you in a meanlingfull realtionship at the moment? If not then you should feel free to play around with another woman. From what I have read most woman feel this way sometimes, no idea why though.
Srs- You obviously need to satisfy your curiosity/desire. It's not going to get better just thinking about it.
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Those.
Give it a shot and see how it works out, cause you'll never really know until you do.
Watch some Lexington Steele videos.
If the power of big black cock cannot reverse the flow of fem-faggotry in your mind, then you must simply accept that your brain chemistry has become fucked beyond hetrosexual repair.
Edit: just noticed the op is a chick. Do as you will.
If that doesn't work, just cheat.
But you'd be a fucked up person for doing it.