I have certainly had my share of fucked up relationships, and yes I do believe that I have been mentally and emotionally scared by them. *At heart I think I'm still a softy, so when shit hits the fan with partners although I act calm... Inside I am absolutely loosing my mind and thinking of the weirdest shit to do.
Maybe it was my first serious girlfriend of 1.5 years that made me the way I am now. She was an absolute lunatic! To sum her up checkout " psycho ho Pablo fransisco". When we first met she was really nice, soft spoken, gorgeously good looking and had a flawless ass and tits! ... Then She became *obsessive, calling me all the time messaging all hours of the day even though we would work 12 hour shifts together 2-3 days a week. The relationship became really stressful but because I was supporting my parents and really didn't get out much other than school I thought I would stick it out a bit longer. She was 20 and I was 16... This should of been the only sign I needed to see that this girl was damaged goods but the lure of sex with an older girl took over... Not to mention free access to smokes and her car....
As the relationship progressed The fights got worse. She would argue with me about me looking at a woman that walked past my work bench .... And my work bench has another bench-top that is about 1.6 meters high.... You could only see the woman's hair! She would get into a full blow argument over that! The arguments got worse and worse to the point where we were physically pushing each other and *on a couple of occasions I actually broke down when I got home.*
I've lost track of the main aim of my thread so I will stop there and cut to the chase. I have a current gf who is also but not as bad a head fuk lunatic. I have come to the conclusion that I would really enjoy breaking her down into a helpless pool of sobbing drool that she wont recover from for a while and will need psychiatric help with. I guess Most guys would just break up and move on but I have tried and I can't, I keep coming back. I don't come back for love.. I think I come back for unfinished business.. Revenge.
So with the help of you guys I hope to accomplish this feat.*