I just came across my 7th grade yearbook…
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In it was everybody’s “Where I see myself in the future” predictions. My classmates had written paragraphs about where they see themselves in ten years (so, today). I couldn’t bear to read mine, if I had even written one. Not just because it would embarassing reading in the style I wrote back then (trying to be funny, etc), but because… well… You know, I’ve achieved nothing.
God, it’s so depressing. I probably wrote something like, I just graduated medical school, since I wanted to be a doctor back then. But no, instead I’m sitting in my room writing a blog on how much my life didn’t go the way it planned.
It seems like just yesterday I was in the 7th grade, too. Where did the time go?
I’ll tell you where it went. It went trying to be the class clown. Trying to make my peers laugh in an effort to feel included. Well that turned out great didn’t it. I’m all alone, and I don’t see myself having a happy ending.
You want to know where I see myself in the future? I’ll tell you where. I see myself living alone in some crappy, rundown apartment, with a terrible job making minimum wage. I’ll spend my time watching reruns of Becker, or getting drunk at a bar. I don’t know.
Ugh.
God, it’s so depressing. I probably wrote something like, I just graduated medical school, since I wanted to be a doctor back then. But no, instead I’m sitting in my room writing a blog on how much my life didn’t go the way it planned.
It seems like just yesterday I was in the 7th grade, too. Where did the time go?
I’ll tell you where it went. It went trying to be the class clown. Trying to make my peers laugh in an effort to feel included. Well that turned out great didn’t it. I’m all alone, and I don’t see myself having a happy ending.
You want to know where I see myself in the future? I’ll tell you where. I see myself living alone in some crappy, rundown apartment, with a terrible job making minimum wage. I’ll spend my time watching reruns of Becker, or getting drunk at a bar. I don’t know.
Ugh.
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You have to realize your limits and set achievable goals for yourself (without resorting to blaming the world for how "poor" your life is--how you feel about your life is entirely up to you). So what if you're not graduating from medical school? So what if you sit at home on the computer? Life is objectively meaningless--YOU decide what you want to do with your life. I've decided that one of the main purposes of my life is to experience happiness as often as possible. If you're happy browsing the internet, posting on totse, and writing a blog, then what's wrong with that? Nothing. There is meaning to that. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
Look into some existential psychology and/or philosophy. That stuff has really helped me when I feel like I'm "failing" at life. It helps you realize there's nothing to really "fail" at, there's just experience and what you make of it.
Anyway, this is where I see myself in the future:
ha.. yeah...
I hate hearing people blame it on other things. It's the economy, oh no!
Also, the only neurochemical imbalances involved in such depression would be pre-existing ones as I probably take less benzos than your grandmother.
It must be nice being 11.
define space wine
I too would like to know this. Do you know of berries that grow in space that have been discovered? Are they cheap?
Too bas brandon was talking about wine FROM space.
You need to realize that life is what you want it to be. I don't mean you can instantly have $50 million or anything like that. If you want to be happy, it's up to you. Happiness is a mental state. If you're ok with how things are, then you can be happy. If you accept certain things, then you can be ok with them. I'm not saying you shouldn't try to improve yourself or get a better job or whatever, but be content and value yourself as a person. These are mental games we have to play. Sometimes I wish I were dumb so I wouldn't have to think about so many unpleasant things. So it goes. I try to be happy by enjoying every moment.
Focus on school. Work on being more social in your free time. Spend time browsing the web for things you're interested in. Try to study those things. Try to get a job working with them.
I would like to add 'don't spend all your money on drugs' to the list.
^ This. Only half your money.
To quote Trainspotting...
"Society invents a spurious convoluted logic tae absorb and change people whae's behaviour is outside its mainstream. Suppose that ah ken aw the pros and cons, know that ah'm gaunnae huv a short life, am ah sound mind, ectetera, ectetera, but still want tae use smack? They won't let ye dae it. They won't let ye dae it, because it's seen as a sign ay thir ain failure. The fact that ye jist simply choose tae reject whut they huv tae offer. Choose us. Choose life. Choose mortgage payments; choose washing machines; choose cars; choose sitting oan a couch watching mind-numbing and spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fuckin junk food intae yir mooth. Choose rotting away, pishing and shiteing yersel in a home, a total fuckin embarrassment tae the selfish, fucked-up brats ye've produced. Choose life. Well, ah choose no tae choose life. If the cunts cannae handle that, it's thair fuckin problem. As Harry Launder sais, ah jist intend tae keep right on to the end of the road..."
Because Trainspotting was suck a brilliant piece of literature and such a cinematic masterpiece.
I needed subtitles for that movie. I had no idea what they were saying a lot of the time.
If you don't like what you've got stop doing what you're doing 'cuz what you're doing is getting you what you've got.
only you can change it, brah.
nice
i just came
spase wine is wine from spase prolly aliens drink it if we ever discover them wich prolly will happin cus i saw a show and they r reel even tho the idiots dont belive that they r ok so ya anyways in the fuchure we will have spase wine
Good job!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ROEZs0HpFQc