She was addicted to Valium before, she is a bit cookoo in the head and she anonys the fuck out of me for real. You can yap yap all day along and I wouldn't get irrirated but she just makes me want to kill cats!. Anyway, she exhibits all signs of being an addict to this drug. She can't sleep without eating it and she doesn't lower the dosage. Also, the girl that I fell for was used to this drug as well. I mean she told me she takes it after few weeks but that is still alarming. She is 50+, doesn't work out, talks about her body hurting here and there. Whenever I take her to the Doctor she will start with her past history and talk about fractures and what not which medically don't even exist or are healed years ago.
She is a tough cookie to deal with, has a high tolerance for listening to people bitching at her. I mean she doesn't respond. When you're talking to her or tell her something she won't listen. She talks whenever she eats and he talks are repetitive. I have tried working with her, tried the pills approach but she is just out of control. I mean she is not that insane but she is insane enought that it drives me crazy. Plus, I can't take her on pills, they might have some big side effects but she is literally out of control. I can't take her to any event because she would just go on and on about things.
I love her but I am running out of options. She is a highe black hole that sucks everything good. I can't eat while she is there, I constantly have to keep my mind parked in neutral.
Anyway, so Lexotanil is her drug that she uses to sleep. She takes the normal one pill dosage, and then goes to sleep. She can't sleep without eating it and I know it's quite dangerous for her to stop. But the fucking problem is, I can't introduce other drugs without fucking her over. I tried to do the course but she would get some weird side effects, plus I can't honestly keep listening to her. I tried this approach and literally pushed me into becoming a sadist fuck. I don't want to go back to that dark place and I can't possibily keep on going like this.
I am sure this sounds weird but if you surrounded by idiots, you start to become one. My dad gets depressive because of her, it's not enough that I am trying my best to get him in shape (srsly he needs to get in shape) and he keeps on making excuses. I mean how fucking thick do you have to be to deny something that you can see is wrong with you?
Anyway, I am side tracking here. Clearing reducing her dosage is the first step but I want a complete road map that I can use to control her or at least make everyone else life better.