I went to go and see a shrink yesterday to start my transition to the Mental Health team back at home. Bitching aside as the guy was a total dick, I was prescribed 30mg Mirtazapine pills (probably branded differently across the globe). Now, I was on the verge of destroying the whole lot as I am not a fan of these sorts of drugs - but I'm always willing to give something a shot, even though I quite like my mood swings at times.
Turns out the maximum dose is 45mg, and about 30 minutes after taking it on an empty stomach, I slept for 4 hours yesterday evening as it just knocks the user out (hence have it before bed, but wake up groggy). I also realised I had insane levels of nausea and closed eye visuals (closed eye hallucinations for the layman) of me running through a room full of curtains and spinning round. Mad.
On the plus side, after just one pill, I don't seem to give a fuck about my past relationships and worries anymore, but I can't help feeling that sensation of being unwell in a way. I'm not sure if there is a term for it, but I just feel "unwell". The closest thing I can find is this:
So, anyone had experience with them? They are a class of sedative anti depressant pills, but I have no intentions of staying on them for long. They can fuck off if they want me to be one of the millions of anti depressed Zombies. Plus i can't experience psychedelics, so I see them as the anti-christ. Also one of their lesser-experienced side effects are involuntary orgasms. Lolwtf. Also a google search on the drug name brings up an old Zoklet forum post