Well, I decided long ago that I will part ways after I reach 19,000 and it seems that day has finally arrived. I was going for 20,000 but 19,000 seems a bit nearer.
I did previously go berserk and raped everyone and I honestly it felt good. But that wasn't the real me. As I have said countless times on various threads and on IRC, I don't get mad on the Internet. It's a waste of energy and it doesn't really affect anyone. Sure I can troll the fuck out of everyone and start mind fucking people but that doesn't really cut it.
I joined on Zoklet back in Jan 30th 2009. Like others I found it a safe heaven for Totseans. I contributed like hell, I just might be one of the top contributors on Zoklet. I helped a lot of users. Always wanted to mod T&T because I knew I could do something for that section. But I got modded in Trading Pit. Did being friends with Zok and being an active user helped in that? Yes, it did. It's forum politics. You wouldn't mod anyone out of the blue. I mean I could and I did many times but zoklet is different. Moving on, Zok ran this place like an office and for the time being everything was perfect. I ran the Trading pit, added new rules, managed things and then I got offered a place in LOL, Internet.
From there I stepped my efforts and with the help of some great users and some careful planning I got some good views in LOLI. The section had new threads every day and you could get some pretty good info there. I was handicapped when it comes to few things. Like I didn't have few features back then, vimeo and other sites embedding options. But I did what I could.
I always acted like user. Sure I did screw up in the past but I was learning things and finding my own way. It turns out in the end that people/users don't really give a shit. I mean sure you can ban people but you need earn their respect. Like prove yourself to them. Keeping that in mind I decided to keep changing myself. I had certain phases, like ban hammer Dfg to kind Dfg. I tried everything but in the end the only that worked for me was, just me. I just acted like normal users and cleaned the place and banned porn bots/ spam bots and prevented flooding.
Did I hate mods/admins who didn't do anything and acted like they own this joint? Sure, its logical emotion. Because it does tend to rub against you when you see some asshats goes over you and doesn't even consider how hard you worked to keep things together. This sort of behaviour didn't work well with me. But I did ignore it from time to time. I tried suggesting new things and adding more competition and stuff but I didn't really get some backing for it.
I agree Fish helped me a lot but I didn't get the feeling. It was like everyone just wanted to stay in one place. I wanted to make this place better and make a new identity for it. Make Zoklet something better. But it's like the wrong people where moving things and didn't bother with others suggestions.
One thing I learned from Zoklet is never to ignore feedback. That's why I ask new mods and users to be open with me. To tell me if there is something wrong. If I fuck up go public and if someone fucks up, go public. This constant feedback keeps everything in check. You remove all the curtains and let everyone see everything and in due time everything just works. You develop a positive mindset that keeps users working hard.
Anyway, so I tried taking breaks and moving away but I used Zoklet as my think pad. I would post things here and read them later and get some information out of it. But I was getting depressed since there was no real progress. The same user base was there and no new users were coming. So, I ventured outside. I inviting uses from hak5, twit and other networks to join in. Some did while the other went away. I made special thread targeting those people and in short I tried everything that a mod can do and I did everything that a super mod/admin should do.
I moved to Revtt and tried there, tried TDD but they lacked something that was missing. I tried totse2 as well. In reality I didn't have another place to move too. Each visit on Zoklet was a nightmare. I was thinking of throwing away everything and moving on but there were users I liked/cared for.
So, back in June I think I went for a break and I decided to let go. And then I found Totse.info and it looked/felt like home. I jumped to it in hopes of finding something and I did what Jeff Hunter did to totse.com. I told users to jump in and see what happens. At that time I didn't knew who hosted Totse.info, who ran it etc. I just took a leap of faith. I was tired of this never-ending cycle and I was really damaging myself, so I said fuck it and I am going to try it. I hope by adding totse.info in the mix Zoklet Admins would setup and try to balance things out. I was hoping they would become active again and really focus on making this place better.
But everything kinda backfired. I got demodded and I was like lolwut. So, I went away with the burn this motherfucker down. I knew it wouldn't work but hey it sure helped blow up some steam and really have some fun. Being a mod on Zoklet is like being caged. You can't really express yourself without making someone mad which eventually leads to a fucking ban.
But Totse.info wasn't ready. It was barely complete. The owner wasn't expecting this. So, it all turned into a party where everyone bitched about Zoklet and eventually went back to it (lol). I don't blame them because IMO they're weren't ready.
So, in the next months we tried survive. I moved my threads back to totse.info [200+ from Moving Pictures] and just for the fuck of it, I added a link to totse.info and bang the DB crashes and the whole shitstorm starts again. Now, this time I am like wtf!
Anyway, I moved the threads again and start working on Totse.info. I started like others but I posted like crazy. I had a 186 posts per day stats when I started moving threads. So, that was a start.
Hellish the Admin asked me to help him out. I told him I would do everything in my power but I don't want the title and power etc. For some reason I hated power, I still do. I don't like being considered something other than a regular. I find it insulting. So, Hellish made a mod and I told him to remove that access but. But later one I had to request some modding functions. I was moving and posting threads and a normal user couldn't do it without getting hammered with 30 seconds timers.
From there I worked on building some foundations, during that time seasons changed, users bitched and left and others just bitched more and told they will stay true and will help but eventually they drifted apart. I had some few users who stayed put. Hellish made me an Admin and in few hours, I changed everything, added more section, compacted things, new infractions, more guides, better control and I shifted all the power to the community. But apparently Totse wasn't stable enough.
I mean the forums were perfect. I had everything covered. There checks on Mods and mods treated like others. You could rape the fuck out of me and I still couldn't do anything to you. The idea was to force the mods to earn their way. And it worked. Mods worked harder, contributed more and those who couldn't put some effort were weeded out. But it's not like they were thrown away. Nope, they were warned before hand and then if they said they will try to be active we kept them. But once they failed we replaced them but told them they can join again.
Aim was to give everyone the opportunity to mod or run the place. It didn't matter you hated another mod or you weren't this and that, only thing that mattered was your willingness. And so, with bunch of dedicated user we started posting and adding content. I pushed for the CMS but I didn't have server access.
We got hacked and Hellish tried to keep things in place but the host was fucked. So, Like a month ago [Nov 2010] I finally got server access. We moved to the new server and bang I found Vbull was fucked here and there. We moved back and I worked on securing it. I read guides, did searches and asked around.
Bk and skittles made a new layout and together with them I started working on it. Few weeks ago we moved to a dedicated host and after fixing the fucking token error and removing everything else we started doing development on Totse.info. Took me weeks but in few days I have a framework that allowed Totse.info to grow. So, in short it was a joy ride for and everyone else. I learned things that I never learned on Zoklet.net.
I started writing more and I felt better. Day in and out things seemed to look better. So, as I reach 19,000 posts on Zoklet after almost 2 years. I am reaching 6,000 in just few months on Totse.info.
Normally I would feel sad saying farewell but I am actually happy since I found a new home for me. I found what could be an alternative to totse.com. Sure, we have tons of things to do. We have to redo layouts, add more things, focus on content. But I am not worried about anything. Because there is a community there. A community who accepts me as their own. Who doesn't care if I am a Paki, a community who listens and shares the same passion. A community who believes that they can do it.
So, thanks for the memories. I had a wonderful time here and I would really miss you guys but hey, I am just a URL away. And don't worry even if you all run away and boycott totse.info, it will survive and it will grow, with or without you.
Dfg
The Last Pakistani Totsean.
Btw I don't hate anyone here. Sure I don't like wires but I don't give a fuck what she does or doesn't anyway.
I will post a copy of this on totse.info. In case this gets deleted or if someone wants to discuss it.
Comments
Watching dexter.
Yeah. You're the only poster on here. You post so much it's not even worth anyone else posting because their posts get overlooked because lurkers think you're the only member here.
If I don't post others slack off. Besides the more links and threads I post the higher the rank goes up. Most of what I post is usually high in demand or is rare/artistic enough to attract the creators.
But yeah I do flood totse some times but that happens only on weekends from now on .
Everbody has predjudices, but only the real losers and degenerates define themselves by them. In turn, those are the only people that will ever feel comfortable here, and it will be a rare case when any of them has something of real value to contribute, instead of just desperatley needing to be heard.
Just kidding. You've done really good work here. fanglekai
That was a good read
too bad the tards over there didn't appreciate much
Btw I didn't spell check it since it was intended for Zoklet.
Hah I was wondering about all the grammatical errors. Nice.
No one wants to hear what your paki ass has to say, don't you notice your homies have to blow themselves up to get ANY American attention? tl;dr and no one fucking cares.
I enjoy writing stuff.
btw I lol'ed.
I've already answered this. Yes I hate you because your gay and yes there is a conspiracy on here against queers and goes all the way to the top.
It's not a persuasion, you faggot. :facepalm:
Here are two prime examples of what I am talking about
"I see paragon mentioning post counts again. Get some new material, ya lil' bitch. There was a time you were all over Dfg's knob and now you're mad because he slapped you across the face with it and turned his back on you.
Since paragon wants to talk post counts though, look how few posts he has and how little he has contributed to this site, by any standards. "
LOL. I owned the shit out of you.
I REALLLLY need a lock on my computer when I'm drunk.