No big deal on the surface, but under the current it was climate changing. I have told you guys about Skipper's Smokehouse before. Well every Thursday a band called Uncle John's Band (a Grateful Dead cover band) plays and it is only $7.00 at the door. I've had an interest in seeing them for sometime now but can never get anyone to go. In the past I would never just go out by myself without a wingman or a date. So tonight I asked a few friends and no takers as usual i=on a Thursday night. SO ia said fuck it. This is the new me and went. Brothers, I found my new best friend tonight, me. I had the best time with me tonight that I have had with anyone in years. I danced with myself, laughed with myself, and smiled all night long. IN the process of having all that fun others around me got caught up in it and just started coming up and talking to me out of the blue. Girls, guys, couples, even the female guest singer came up to me after her set and said, I'm not sure who had more fun with that, me or you".
If this karmic acceleration doesn't find a slow burn soon I may just have to replace Christianity with The Last Church of Beave.
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You shoul'a taken that chick you met bro...
Either way I'm happy for you.
When I was shoved to the very pit of personal hell and felt as though I had nothing to lose and nothing to give I turned and saw only myself. At that point my transformation took place. I feel like a Sith Acolyte who found the light of the Jedi. The same strength, speed, and awareness that I used to call from fear I now can call from perfect love and perfect trust. You see boys, it all really does come from the same source just like the Force. But that source is not outside of us or even inside of us, it is us. Once I learned that I came to love myself as a Christian loves Jesus.
In fact I had another great night tonight. I went back to Skippers Smokehouse tonight after helping Susan with a small problem. Now those of you with access to M&A know all about her. And I still think she is the bee's knees and would do most anything to help her. If things progress and we get closer that would be wonderful. But I have value also. So I went out by myself again tonight. I met several really cool, intelligent and charming people, most of whom approached me.
There was one exception. I was at the bar getting some hot spiced rum and a gorgeous redhead about my age with green eyes and freckles was walking up to get served at the same time. Even though I was there slightly first I bowed slightly, tipped my hat, and said, "After you..." She thanked me, stepped up, and placed her order. Her purse was back at the table with her friends and she was $.25 short for her drink. She told the bartender she need to go get a quarter and would be right back. Well shit, it was just a quarter so I tossed it on the bar and told her I got you don't worry. She asked if I was sure and looked into my eyes with her bright green orbs. I melted a bit as I smiled warmly and told her that the warmth in her eyes made that the best 25 cents I had spent all year. We spent the rest of the night talking, laughing, dancing, hugging and just standing side by side arm in arm swaying to the beat.
She is a school teacher. Another intelligent pagan woman that I know in my heart of hearts would never have had any interest in the man I was. I walked her to her car, exchanged phone numbers with a promise to call her tomorrow, and a long slow sensual embrace with slow soft kisses by the car. The point is if I didn't love myself as I now do niether of these fascinating vibrant woman would have given me the time of day.
Now guys, I have never considerd myself a player. That is not to say I ever had any trouble hooking up. But I never have been one to use come on lines or just go out to get laid. Even as a young man there had to be a connection of some significance to stir my loins. So I really don't have any game with women other than sincerity. That was so all my life and doubly so now. I have had more women smile and say hi to me in the last 12 days that I have in the last ten years. Hell, even tonight while I was speaking with Anne another woman, complete stranger, walk past me, smiled warmly, and said, "Hi, how are you", in a soft husky tone. I left my lights on in the car and they announced on stage. As I went out to turn of my lights I had a grin on my mug, a song in my heart, and bounce in my step. I passed a young pretty thing half my age. Out of the blue she smiled and asked me how I was. I replied. "If I was doing any better I'm afraid the might toss me off the planet. How are you?" She replied, "I'm allright" I smiled and replied, "Honey, take a look in the mirror, I think you're doing better than allright". She giggled and said, "How sweet, thank you".
If I could bottle this thing I have found inside myself I would give the whole world a sip.