Shit mood
Argh so this is a bit of a long one, but hold on.
Friday night I did my injections for my medical stuff then had a chinese with the missus. I only ate a couple of spoonfuls of rice and a bit of seaweed, then we got stoned and passed out. Hooray!
Anyway, Saturday rolls around and Tordek comes over. This has been on the books for a while, but my medical condition flares up with subconcious stress and I can picture my genes having a kind of trollface, as they know I enjoy seeing my mates, but they fuck up anyway.
We go exploring, then I pass out when I get back. I can't put anything in my stomach as it rejects it and I can't walk and can barely breathe. I sleep from 4:30pm to 2am and them from 4am to 9am. The pain has mostly gone but it's still there, and after taking 200mg Tramadol and 90mg Codeine yesterday and almost going to hospital due to the nausea and increased pain.
Now when it comes to University I have pissed away my 2nd year. I'm a smart guy, but I get apathetic. I'd rather get my job and work than doing the groundwork and being moulded to fit the marking criteria of a Lecturer. I failed an essay and after reading the feedback and giving it another go this morning, it's no different! (It's on race and class in the Great Depression, yet the guy wants me to talk about Bourbon Democrats and Populists which had mostly faded out by 1929).
So, as my girlfriend and other mate just turned up, what do you reccommend? A change of scenery? A break from work? Everything fucks me off.
Friday night I did my injections for my medical stuff then had a chinese with the missus. I only ate a couple of spoonfuls of rice and a bit of seaweed, then we got stoned and passed out. Hooray!
Anyway, Saturday rolls around and Tordek comes over. This has been on the books for a while, but my medical condition flares up with subconcious stress and I can picture my genes having a kind of trollface, as they know I enjoy seeing my mates, but they fuck up anyway.
We go exploring, then I pass out when I get back. I can't put anything in my stomach as it rejects it and I can't walk and can barely breathe. I sleep from 4:30pm to 2am and them from 4am to 9am. The pain has mostly gone but it's still there, and after taking 200mg Tramadol and 90mg Codeine yesterday and almost going to hospital due to the nausea and increased pain.
Now when it comes to University I have pissed away my 2nd year. I'm a smart guy, but I get apathetic. I'd rather get my job and work than doing the groundwork and being moulded to fit the marking criteria of a Lecturer. I failed an essay and after reading the feedback and giving it another go this morning, it's no different! (It's on race and class in the Great Depression, yet the guy wants me to talk about Bourbon Democrats and Populists which had mostly faded out by 1929).
So, as my girlfriend and other mate just turned up, what do you reccommend? A change of scenery? A break from work? Everything fucks me off.
Comments
Get outside. If your weather is like mine, it's warm and sunny outside right now. Go somewhere random, get out into the countryside if you can and enjoy something which isn't the sound of city life for a little while. It will take your mind off of everything. Just you, your mates, the nice surroundings and weather, etc. Take a camera with you so you can remember it.
Do something random. Change your routine. Rearrange your room so that when you return, it's different to normal. Drink something really cold and refreshing. Do something!
Pacino.. always spot on.
She's sitting topless on my bed packing a bowl, wearing only my trackie bottoms
Light brown hair. Just imagine
And yeah I will post the emails here :hai:
You know what you have to do, and you know you don't need to be happy to do it. You have not given in to nihilism, and for what it's worth, I don't think you ever will.
When are you going to fucking die from your stupid disease already and stop making shitty threads
Get tuff or cry trying, either get better or fucking die, but either way stop bitching about it in every post you make
I hear injecting heroin into your cock is quite a rush as well.
C/O stuck a toilet plunger to his bed
you know a motherfucker's a nihilist when he uses a tool to remove human waste from one's domicile to get off
P.S. you hear right, but now I have track marks all over my scrotum