On April 22 I was betrayed by an asshole and I had to move back with my family. I lost my fiber connection because well it's not supported here. So, I had to use Wimax which I am using right now. Then I got connected with a girl out of nowhere and for the first time in my life (and hers) we fell in love. From April 22 to this day, my life has been going back and forth, it's constantly changing, I am constantly facing different emotional problems and I have been trying to deal with it. Lucky I came through clean in the end and even with everything going on, I did maintain my head and saw light at the end of the tunnel.
Now, with the life a bit steady the changes I have to make are still in progress. My family is going to sell this damned house, buy a plot and build a new house with the money. It would be in a better location, would have more rooms would be expandable and would be totally ours and not to mention it would have rooms dedicated for office work. And it would have fiber connection. I was going to really make some noise and get the connection to my place, I already had the meetings and was in full force when I fell in love and then things went out of sync.
I am still very much in love but it's more distant and controlled (THANK GOD). I found out why I went the other way in the end, it's because I stopped writing and sharing stuff. Ever since I moved in the rented place I couldn't write or really create something, it seems I work better when I am with my family for some very odd reasons. It seems the more noise I am in the better I perform and isolation kills me. In the past weeks I have learned a lot and saw what could and could not happen but that's beside the point.
What I am saying is, in April I was supposed to make changes, start a new page but I fucked by life, betrayal and finally love. It's not that I didn't enjoy some parts of it but I did neglect things on the work front. There should always be a balance in everything. I am going to be applying to a University in the coming months, I would be studying Italian and I would be learning coding and some other important things. And while I am doing that I would be sharing and exploring stuff and posting more videos and focusing on creating this place better.
I started the change already; currently the DB is being backed up. Then I will do the upgrade for VB and then I will start fixing stuff. There is a lot on my plate because I was out of action for a while and it really sucks sitting in 100+F temperature and fighting mosquitoes but at the end of that unwanted Journey I have FINALLY discovered myself.
So, expect a lot more from my side. I intend to write every day or every other day because it's the only thing that keeps me centered. I love you guys, I really do. And hopefully together we can bring this place back to life. I would on Skype, on TS and forums.
Post here the things that are urgent and I will queue them up and start working on them, currently focusing on bugfixes and then development.
Love you guys, it feels good to be back.
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Good luck in the near future, man. I've got your back. No homo. I want to see this site take off and stay orbiting.
Happens to the best of us
Oh that... on it.
You have to be one of the funniest dudes on this forum mate. LoL!
If you like this you should catch my live show.
Although I am a totsean voyuer. This place brings me back to reality.
I missy you long time BIG boy.
Are you in the test forum bro?
http://www.totseans.com/sandbox/?styleid=3
I haven't had time to do much since the edu BS started. I've come to the conclusion I'd rather be a happy dumbass with a mediocre job than someone who will get a great paid job which will consist of much brown nosing to improve my position in life. Great things come at a great cost.
Mainly stress.
I need to complete it though because I paid for it.
Ahhh...I remember being love sick once. Unfortunately I ruined that relationship.
I sat on my right hand to put her to sleep and she woke up and caught me messing around with my left.......Now we're just friends.
Really long story. I slept for like 4 hours and I have been constantly working on systems. It would be an interesting read. Gimme few hours of sleep first.